I just wish people would actually see me for who I am. I've created this image of 'happy-go-lucky', careless party girl. But what's behind my mask? They don't want to find out.
Im sad. I havnt felt so lonely in a long time.
'loneliness is the worst pain of all'
My friends don't see it. I need someone to notice im not alright. I want to be taken care of. I want to feel like I matter to someone. Not because im 'pretty' or 'funny', but because im important.
Im breaking down little by little every day.. behind my closed bedroom door.
Im taking my masks off, putting my hands in the air soon. I promise. And if i tell people they need to fight for what they want, then so shall I.
And if I loose? then im a loser. but fighting for something is the only way i feel alive. so be it.
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