This is funny now. Searching for building materials on google. Gives aheadache in the top right part of my brain.
I wonder hows my heart doing. He doesnt know a shit what's going on. He doesn't need to, never had. Having him in my life was like being hit by a bus. cracked every single cell of my body. now its just scary and disgusting to think of how much i loved him. for nothing basically, for kicks and doodles. i wasted my all i had in my heart for noone, nothing. theres not enough for someone who really deserves it... a huge hole in my chest. ys aim very happy and im so lucky in my life now. but sort of incomplete. i stoped drinking, smoking and swearing. but those were not my true enemies, turns out...